Sometimes i feel like everything is going wronge, like i cant do anything right, and even when i try it seems im being laughed at even if its not im my face. Sometimes i just cant take this pain and i want to find a small dark corner and evaprate into it... but i know this wont help or change what is going on in my f***ed up life.

This moring i tryed soooo hard to make him happy, i cuddled him, i cooked him brakfast, i keept complementing him and trying to make him smile. nothing worked, he just did what he always dose... metaly brushes it off and walks away to iggie me for another day. i only really see him sunday even thou we live to gether. i mean he works alllllll day every day monday-saturday. 7 to 4 or 5. then when he comes home we eat, mabye talk a little then he starts playing R6 and ignores me.. and i have to find ways to occupie my mind, and im not suposta get upset that he dosent pay any attenchen to me.

Most saturdays are the same way, minuse the working part.

Im 22 weeks pregnat, in a day ill be 23 weeks. Is it normal to feel so alone? shouldnt he be trying to help me feel happy and excepted? i feel like im not good enuff, we never "do" anything. he always ignores me, and when i say that i want to spend time with him and that im hurt by him ignoring me...... he just gets mad.

I wish some one out there knows how i feel and can help me.

i dont think i can take it much more

I dont want to be so sad... depresed... so f***ing alone... it hurts all to much...